It took forever to get to see Kay today. I was down for the shuttle before 12:30 not to miss it but it didn't come until after 1 and by the time I got there it was 2 pm. As I got off the elevator I saw her across the hall walking holding on to the railing. When she saw me and the coat she could not get over how cold I was. Probably the coat she was feeling. As she was not wearing a sweater and always has something on more substantial than a light blouse I said I would go get a sweater for her. At this the caregiver said she would go get one for her. We went to the iron chairs and table where I gave her a couple truffles and a graham cracker. As there was less than half an hour for the visit I took her to her room for a few minutes. As as you would know it the shuttle to take me back was early so I didn't really get a half hour with her. I made out OK on the way back. On the way there I had what may be another miracle. The other passenger we were to pick up was a blind woman who had worked for the County for many years and she said the VA has a great program for blind vets that may be able to solve my problem of getting closer to Kay. If it is as she described it will do it. She knows the names of the people running the VA program and seems to know what she is talking about. I have her number and when she gets back to answer it I will talk more to her and find out if it all of what it is cracked up to be. If so it was a good thing that I didn't take the apartment I was going to before. That might have been good but I would probably have missed this contact if it works out as she says. Maybe I will have more news tomorrow.
Kay with her dad.
The Phantom Of The Opera the Phantom had to face it his way. That is how I relate to the movie when I watch it.
At 11 PM I had eaten a couple toffee's and when I checked my b/g I decided I had better take a walk and work off my b/g. If I want to do it fast the best way is to walk up the hill across the street from the acility. When I asked the nurse on duty to open the door she got positively indigent that I would go out at this time of night. I got over being afraid of the dark when I was 9 years old. I thought going out at this time might be a problem but figured that I might as well find out if this is a jail or not. Most of the time I take a walk after dinner and it is dark then also. Besides what happens will happen and I don't want the hoodlums and criminals to run my life. Life is a chance. We are down town Tacoma and there is not a lot of foot traffic. Except for Apartments there is nothing to draw people on the street. I don't consider that in my decision to take a walk. I figure I have to just take my chances. The nurse was not concerned about my health just that the company might get into trouble. If I had known it was beginning a light rain I would have worn my new rain hat that Tom brought me yesterday.
Daughter Dianne has a birthday today.
While working on this project at times I wonder how long I can continue. You see these things in movies all the time. But the tragedy there is just make believe. Kay taken from me is not make believe. It is happening daily. When I saw her today even she seemed somewhat worse. However after a while it became less noticeable. But eventually she wont come out of it. What then? I don't know. I can see how two people who have been together so many years depend and need the other. Maybe doing this video was a mistake. On the other hand making it or not making it won't lesson what effect the coming period of time will have.
I don't think I have ever read a similar account of a couple at the end of their lives doing a daily account. If I were a better writer it might be worth reading. At my ability I don't know. You be the judge. Do you even want to know? We were forced into this situation why shouldn't people know about what goes on? All my kids have been married a long time. They will also have to face the music.
At 11 PM I had eaten a couple toffee's and when I checked my b/g I decided I had better take a walk and work off my b/g. If I want to do it fast the best way is to walk up the hill across the street from the acility. When I asked the nurse on duty to open the door she got positively indigent that I would go out at this time of night. I got over being afraid of the dark when I was 9 years old. I thought going out at this time might be a problem but figured that I might as well find out if this is a jail or not. Most of the time I take a walk after dinner and it is dark then also. Besides what happens will happen and I don't want the hoodlums and criminals to run my life. Life is a chance. We are down town Tacoma and there is not a lot of foot traffic. Except for Apartments there is nothing to draw people on the street. I don't consider that in my decision to take a walk. I figure I have to just take my chances. The nurse was not concerned about my health just that the company might get into trouble. If I had known it was beginning a light rain I would have worn my new rain hat that Tom brought me yesterday.
Daughter Dianne has a birthday today.
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I carried this picture in my wallet all during the war and occupation.  |
Dianne Holmes
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